BLACK FRIDAY!

I have worked retail and Black Friday too many years!  When I got out of working in retail and big box stores, I swore I would never ever shop on Black Friday.  I know it is hard to resist some really super sales but the crazy hours, the crowd frenzy and sold out of 'that' item makes me crazy, anxious and claustrophobic!

So this Black Friday I will sit here with you and clean my house for coming guests....

Whatever you do, ENJOY!!

Happy Thanksgiving Day!!

Wishing you all and yours, a very Thankful and Happy Thanksgiving!

WISH UPON A STARFISH WEDNESDAY 11-27-13

Today, I am opening up to custom pieces ... here are some pictures of some possibilities:

Here are some ideas:

• latitude and longitude of YOUR special place
• specific names of people, places or things
• palm trees or grasses
• wood burning into a painted tree, painted fence, in the scene
• saw tooth hanger, wire hanger, rope hanger
• real sand and shells on the beach painting

Share your ideas and I will do my best... I will send you photos before I send it out to you for your approval.  However, once you have approved the completed work the sale is final unless destroyed in shipping.  If that is the case it while be put through the shipper.  

I work hard to do work that you will be happy with.  All work is one of a kind and different from the next.  Colors vary by camera and lightning, and on the materials used.  Wood signs, made recently and on going, are recycled woods and acrylic paint.

TOP TEN TUESDAY 11-26-13

TOP TEN TUESDAY!!

aloha!!   Today's special is 10% OFF your entire purchase!   The more you spend, the more you save, so let's see who is on your list.

1. a beach bum... a wantabe beach bum... a bum-ette!
2. a mermaid....
3. do you live near or far from the beach but love the beach
4. are you land locked
5. do have a beach cottage, an RV, a mobile home, an apartment...
6. do you love encouragement to stare at
7. do you need a gift that keeps giving
8. a snow bird
9. are you a parrot head
10. want to quit your job and drift away

Well, lets shop today and be as happy as a seagull with a french fry!!

See you later!!

MAGIC MONDAY 11-25-13

DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?

Whether they are real or not, I think MERMAIDS are magic...magical!  Mermaids represent so much to those of us that are in love with the beach... the ocean... sea life.... and The Little Mermaid!!

Well, Magic Monday is actually Mermaid Magic Monday!  If you make a purchase of any of my work with a 'mermaid', you will receive FREE gift wrapping included in your shipment.  I initially was going to wrap it all up for you, but if you are like me, I want to see it in person first!  So I will include the tissue paper, wrapping paper and ribbon in the shipment.

See you tomorrow!

RE-CAP MISSILEVIEW ART AND CRAFT FAIR

We had a wonderful day Saturday at our resident craft fair.  We got to see some old friends and make new ones too!  We thank everyone for their patronage and everyone for stopping by.  Here are some of the tables that were set up, and for residents, perhaps if you ask nice, you may still be able to purchase from your neighbors.

ARE YOU READY? Counting down the sale...

10 DAYS TO GO......I am so excited to share this year's count down for the Holiday Shopping with you.  I am so thankful that you will be following along and even considering my creations as gifts.  I'll be over the moon when you purchase gifts from me!!

I love the holidays and Christmas is my very favorite time of the year.  When gift giving, I try to give something with meaning to the receiptant that holds a special message, a special meaning,  a special time, we've shared.  I want the person to see it and know I gave them a part of me, from the heart.  So now, I want you to have that same experience giving my gifts.  I do my very best to create something that not only am I pleased and proud of BUT that you will be pleased and proud to give.  So, if you are reading this:

If you make a purchase from me and when you receive it, you like it... no, you love it and must keep it for yourself and need to purchase something else from me... use the coupon code GIFT ME and I will take 20% off your next item!!

So what else is going on during our SPECIAL WEEK?

1. MONDAY: should be MERMAID MAGIC MONDAY!  If you purchase something from the shop that is a MERMAID, I will include FREE GIFT WRAPPING in the shipment!  If you are like me, you'll want to see the purchase in real life, so  instead of actually wrapping, I will include tissue paper, wrapping paper and ribbon, in the shipment.  Off to a complete start!!
2. TUESDAY: TOP TEN TUESDAY!  Purchase ANYTHING from my shop and get 10% off your total!  The more you spend, the more you save!
3. WEDNESDAY:  WISH UPON A STARFISH WEDNESDAY!  On Wednesday, I am opening up up a conversation if you would like a CUSTOM PIECE done for the holidays... Do you want it for you?  Do you want it as a gift??  Do you want a certain LATITUDE and LONGITUDE? NAME?  INITIALS? TOWN? BEACH?  The possibilities are endless and I want YOU to decide and be thrilled with it...WATCH FOR MORE INFORMATION ON YOUR CUSTOM PIECE!
4. THURSDAY is THANKSGIVING!  Enjoy!! 
5. BLACK FRIDAY!  I know the sales the big box stores have are hard to resist so if you are out shopping on Friday, when you get home, pull out your list, a glass of wine, and see what specials I run during certain hours.
6. SMALL BUSINESS SATURDAY!  Remember to shop your local small businesses and all the small businesses that you follow all year long!  If you purchase today from the comfort of your home, I will save you some gas money and offer FREE SHIPPING today, tomorrow and Monday!!
7. SUNNY SUNDAY!   FREE SHIPPING!
8. CYBER MONDAY!!   FREE SHIPPING!!

 

SPECIAL EVENT COMING!!

I'm going to take a leap of faith again!!  I am planning a Special Gift Event for the Holidays!!  So keep your eyes open here, and here for my announcements.

On Saturday, November 23rd I will participating again in Missile View Mobile Park's Annual Holiday Art, Craft and Gift Fair....

On Monday, November 25th I will be opening my Esty Shop with one week of daily specials to help you get some special gifts of the journey for your beach lovers, home, RV's, and YOU.


Here's a sneak peak of the daily events:

But... what is in store for you is still to be announced!!   Stay tuned for more announcements.

MISSILEVIEW MOBILE HOME PARK HOLIDAY CRAFT FAIR

It's that time of year again and the residents at Missile View Mobile Park are having their Annual Holiday Gift, Art and Craft Fair on Saturday, November 23, 2013.  It will be held between 9AM and 3PM and I hope you will save the date and stop by.  There will be many GIFT and HOME items that are hard to resist!

Above is just a sampling of the tables at the 2012 Art and Craft Fair.  This year we have more residents participating and busy making their hand made crafts to share with you.

I hope you will share the date and information with everyone you know and join us for some GREAT HOLIDAY FUN!! 

Garden Street to N. Dixie Avenue to Mayfair Way (follow the signs to the REC HALL)

Please don't ask me to watch your boat....

I have to share this story... It makes me smile when I think about it.  My thoughts for some lazy time by the water on a Sunday afternoon.

Yesterday, was gorgeous out... just think today.  High 70's, a slight breeze... such a welcomed day and weather after the long hot summer.  To me this is perfect weather.  I had gone out earlier with friends and when I came home, I'd planned of picking up where I left off as far as putting things back in order and cleaning... but I sat down and really wanted to be outside again.  If I went out in the yard I would have started a project out there... so I decided to take a ride to the river and see what I could see.  Depending on which area I go to I might see some dolphins playing or manatees logging around and maybe a baby or two.  At the last minute I decided to take my dog, Heidi, with me.  She's been cooped up inside all summer too.

so over the bridge we go...

Checking out the sides of the river there are men fishing on the south side and some cars parked on the north side... so go to the north side.  There is an empty area that will keep Heidi away from barking at people and an area for her to investigate.

So here we are... the river was pretty calm and just relaxing... and beautiful... we parked right at the river's edge on the north east side...  there was plenty of space alone for her to walk around... she couldn't wait to get out....

there were people down further but usually there are wind surfers and such but it must have been too late in the afternoon.   We walked around... she sniffed all the piles of beached grass and of course,  even girls will mark their territory or let you know they've been there!

then this young man comes and decides he'll put this together and launch it right in front of us....

my happy girl

 
She was quiet while he set it up and attached the sail.  She very quietly made sounds while he was in the water but watched him..... THEN....


He said he'd forgotten something and would only be about 5 minutes... would I watch his boat...sure!

She spotted the gulls and some sand pipers flew that way... He wasn't gone a minute or two when I turned to look at Heidi, a breeze blew and I turned back to look at this boat......

and WATCHED it drift away....

 and away... but I did watch it! I felt so bad but the rope must have been up on his deck  'cause I didn't see one to grab... needless to say he was surprised and not happy when he came back....


It was time to leave.  I grabbed my chair and headed home.....so much for my relaxing time at the river... I didn't see any dolphins or manatees. Maybe next time.

I do see a painting coming up!!

Sometimes I get stuck...

Sometimes, you just have to wonder.  You get your mind set, you think you have  a path, a direction, a goal, and POOF!  the rug is pulled out from under you AGAIN!  But that's life, I guess. Or it is the way mine has been going.

I have been trying to redesign my life for a while.  I was lucky to sell my original art work to be sold on the Jersey Shore.  I reinvested that money into supplies for the batch I am working on and I'm liking what I am doing.  It is a good diversion getting into the 'zone' but lately I have been very distracted.

You may have read:  My life is under construction again...  well, it took a twist and turn again.

After dismantling outside and cleaning up, the home I was going to move into was sold from under me.  I was told I had a month, but more like 2 weeks later it was sold and someone moved into it.  I've been on a bummer since.

There is another one that would be even better but I don't know what to do about it...

I started writing this post, but was stuck and stayed stuck  long enough.   So this is what I'm doing now... and the motivation behind it.

I haven't been {home} to Long Island in about 2 or 3 years to see my family SOOOO everyone is coming down to Florida the weekend after Thanksgiving.  They are all flying into Orlando and spending the weekend at Disney and then heading over this way.  I am very excited and can't wait to see everyone!  

As many of you know I started allot of work inside and outside.  I had to undo allot outside when I thought I was moving and put everything inside on hold and left in a mess.  Well, yesterday I started picking up the pieces and putting things back together again.  I don't know if I will ever move but for now this is 'home' so it was overdue being home again.  I started in the living room because that was the room I spend most of my time in and it was a shambles.  I had moved things to move the washer and dryer in to redo the hall floor and just never moved the living room back together.  So yesterday I did... almost... and today I continue.  From there I'll take one room at a time and clean and set up... Before I know it, they will be here and that way when my family does come to visit I don't have to be mortified!!!

My life is still under construction!!!

Sometimes I still wonder.... I am hurting today and taking it so much slower than yesterday but mentally I am in a better place and taking it one step at a time.  Let's see how the journey goes.

Don't you just love unexpected gifts?

I do.

I guess I missed a post on Facebook, which is actually easy for me.  I received a private message last week that I had won a give-away and won a mermaid necklace from  wellfleet marine retail store !  I thanked Jill and gave her my address and forgot about it.  

My mind has been so very pre-occupied... am I moving?  am I not?  Is all the family drama with my nephew quiet?  My family is coming to Florida after Thanksgiving and I am very excited about this but... where do I start preparing?  My phone and computer were working erratically so??? 

I finally checked the mail, and lo and behold a box.... with a cute mermaid and baby sticker on it!!

As I walked home, across the street, I marvelled at the mermaid with her baby.  Besides thinking I should live a mermaid's life, I have been painting mermaids and always trying to make each one a little different.  I am working on a canvas that is a mermaid watching my sister's family on the beach.  This really caught my eye and my imagination.

When I got inside I started ripping the box apart......

This is what I found!!!  It is beautiful and I can't wait to wear it proudly!!  It is so pretty, a mix of copper and brass with a pearl on a leather necklace!  The only reason I haven't worn it yet is because I've been in painting and cleaning clothes and a holey t-shirt!  As much as it would dress up my current outfits, I want to wear it and feel special.

This one is a little blurry but....


One of the great things about receiving a gift like this is not only can I tell you about it but I can tell you about the company that sent it to me.  Being from Long Island, I have had the pleasure of going to Massachusetts a number of times and only wish I'd known about wellfleet then.  The fun part of the Internet is I can still and will shop there now... and so can you!

They have a web site here.   You can  SHOP HERE.  You can find Home Decor, Jewelry, Kids Stuff, Bath and Body... and of course Mermaids!

I love to get books for the kids in the family, and I love to get stories that relate to something and have some meaning.... Wellfleet has a wonderful selection of  books here.   And in the kids stuff too.

What about a couple of hooks for towels, the dog leash, coats, pot holders... the possibilities are endless....

Neptune

Mermaid

or a candle with their cute logo mermaid:

As you can see, they have a wide variety and I am sure if you see sometime on their Facebook page, you can call and order it to be sent too.

So, go over and check them out.  Spread some love over on their Facebook page and remember:

The Sandpiper

I read this on a friend's Facebook post and it really touched me... I have been sharing it too.  Then I googled it and found the picture, one that a child could have drawn....

The Sandpiper

by Robert Peterson

She was six years old when I first met her on the beach near where I live.
I drive to this beach, a distance of three or four miles, whenever the world begins to close in on me. She was building a sand castle or something and looked up, her eyes as blue as the sea.
"Hello," she said.
I answered with a nod, not really in the mood to bother with a small child.
"I'm building," she said.
"I see that. What is it?" I asked, not really caring.
"Oh, I don't know, I just like the feel of sand."
That sounds good, I thought, and slipped off my shoes.
A sandpiper glided by.
"That's a joy," the child said.
"It's a what?"
"It's a joy. My mama says sandpipers come to bring us joy."
The bird went gliding down the beach. Good-bye joy, I muttered to myself, hello pain, and turned to walk on. I was depressed, my life seemed completely out of balance.
"What's your name?" She wouldn't give up.
"Robert," I answered. "I'm Robert Peterson."
"Mine's Wendy... I'm six."
"Hi, Wendy."
She giggled. "You're funny," she said.
In spite of my gloom, I laughed too and walked on.
Her musical giggle followed me.
"Come again, Mr.. P," she called. "We'll have another happy day."
The next few days consisted of a group of unruly Boy Scouts, PTA meetings, and an ailing mother. The sun was shining one morning as I took my hands out of the dishwater. I need a sandpiper, I said to myself, gathering up my coat.
The ever-changing balm of the seashore awaited me.. The breeze was chilly but I strode along, trying to recapture the serenity I needed.
"Hello, Mr. P," she said. "Do you want to play?"
"What did you have in mind?" I asked, with a twinge of annoyance.
"I don't know. You say."
"How about charades?" I asked sarcastically.
The tinkling laughter burst forth again. "I don't know what that is."
"Then let's just walk."
Looking at her, I noticed the delicate fairness of her face.
"Where do you live?" I asked.
"Over there." She pointed toward a row of summer cottages.
Strange, I thought, in winter.
"Where do you go to school?"
"I don't go to school. Mommy says we're on vacation"
She chattered little girl talk as we strolled up the beach, but my mind was on other things. When I left for home, Wendy said it had been a happy day. Feeling surprisingly better, I smiled at her and agreed.
Three weeks later, I rushed to my beach in a state of near panic. I was in no mood to even greet Wendy. I thought I saw her mother on the porch and felt like demanding she keep her child at home.
"Look, if you don't mind," I said crossly when Wendy caught up with me, "I'd rather be alone today." She seemed unusually pale and out of breath.
"Why?" she asked.
I turned to her and shouted, "Because my mother died!" and thought, My God, why was I saying this to a little child?
"Oh," she said quietly, "then this is a bad day."
"Yes," I said, "and yesterday and the day before and -- oh, go away!"
"Did it hurt?" she inquired.
"Did what hurt?" I was exasperated with her, with myself.
"When she died?"
"Of course it hurt!" I snapped, misunderstanding,
wrapped up in myself. I strode off.
A month or so after that, when I next went to the beach, she wasn't there. Feeling guilty, ashamed, and admitting to myself I missed her, I went up to the cottage after my walk and knocked at the door. A drawn looking young woman with honey-colored hair opened the door.
"Hello," I said, "I'm Robert Peterson. I missed your little girl today and wondered where she was."
"Oh yes, Mr. Peterson, please come in. Wendy spoke of you so much. I'm afraid I allowed her to bother you. If she was a nuisance, please, accept my apologies."
"Not at all! she's a delightful child." I said, suddenly realizing
that I meant what I had just said.
"Wendy died last week, Mr. Peterson. She had leukemia
Maybe she didn't tell you."
Struck dumb, I groped for a chair. I had to catch my breath.
"She loved this beach, so when she asked to come, we couldn't say no. She seemed so much better here and had a lot of what she called happy days. But the last few weeks, she declined rapidly..." Her voice faltered, "She left something for you, if only I can find it. Could you wait a moment while I look?"
I nodded stupidly, my mind racing for something to say to this lovely young woman. She handed me a smeared envelope with "MR. P" printed in bold childish letters.. Inside was a drawing in bright crayon hues -- a yellow beach, a blue sea, and a brown bird. Underneath was carefully printed:
A SANDPIPER TO BRING YOU JOY.
Tears welled up in my eyes, and a heart that had almost forgotten to love opened wide. I took Wendy's mother in my arms. "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry," I uttered over and over, and we wept together. The precious little picture is framed now and hangs in my study. Six words -- one for each year of her life -- that speak to me of harmony, courage, and undemanding love.
A gift from a child with sea blue eyes and hair the color of sand
-- who taught me the gift of love.

NOTE: This is a true story sent out by Robert Peterson. It happened over 20 years ago and the incident changed his life forever. It serves as a reminder to all of us that we need to take time to enjoy living and life and each other. The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less.

Life is so complicated, the hustle and bustle of everyday traumas can make us lose focus about what is truly important
or what is only a momentary setback or crisis..
This week, be sure to give your loved ones an extra hug, and by all means, take a moment... even if it is only ten seconds, to stop and smell the roses.
This comes from someone's heart, and is read by many
and now I share it with you..
May God Bless everyone who receives this! There are NO coincidences!
Everything that happens to us happens for a reason. Never brush aside anyone as insignificant. Who knows what they can teach us?

I wish for you, a sandpiper.

It didn't matter how much of this was true but I did check it out on snopes.com  and still interesting....

So, to you, I wish for you, a sandpiper,  to bring you joy.

Light a Candle at 8pm

World Suicide Prevention Day~PLEASE LIGHT A CANDLE at 8PM.

Can you imagine this statistic?

But much more than a  statistic, these are our family members, our friends, our neighbors, people we know and some we have only know of. They are sons and daughters, mothers and fathers, sisters and brothers... and on that 41st second, some one's life will never be the same and will never get over it...despite what you think.

 Personally, I HAVE thought about it but for one fail, I never acted on it again.  As bad as I felt, I had people that did worry about me and truthfully made pain in the asses of themselves and I am thankful for them.  But sometimes there is nothing you can do to stop someone who is in that much pain, and I'm not saying no one cares about other people...I'm saying please don't blame yourself (I know, easier said than done.)  I think a great organization to check out is:  American Foundation for Suicide Prevention .  Know that you are not alone in this... unfortunately.

On the other side, if I could say one thing, it would be:
IT'S NOT THE END, IT DOES GET BETTER! There are times when that cloud of depression just stays over your head and it just won't lift.  It's like a storm of 30 days and 30 nights, only sometimes it feels like forever!  That pain will go away... it can. And I am sorry it hurts so much. I have to thank some one that did stay up all night... with me.  As much as I recommend talking to anyone, I suggest a professional uninvolved person with an objective view to talk to... sometimes it's easier.  Call the Hotline:  1-800-273-8255.

I am lost for words... but I do know this much for sure...
Death is very final for those who are gone and for those left behind.  Life as we know it will never be the same... never ever.  Life as friends and family of Laura and Jennica know it, and so many more, will never ever be the same be the same.  Jennica's daughter will never be the same...

Had any of us known, we would have stayed up all night... but now, going forward, remember, there are ways of How To Save A Life... 


Last year's, 2012, post for World Suicide Prevention Day ~ Please light a candle tonight at 8pm.

My life is under construction again!! or STILL!

I should paint myself a sign that says:

 UNDER CONSTRUCTION 

 or 

WORK IN PROGRESS!!

and keep it handy at all times.  I just have to keep moving BUT I have to remember to stop before I fall.  Right now, I have a full plate of things I haven't finished and things that need to be done to make some more changes.  I am in the process of dismantling everything I have done outside over the past few years... but sooner than later.  I've worked outside all week and today I am having a hard time moving, so here I type.

After that, I have to re-think and re-sort what I am keeping and donate the rest, and move.  I am staying here but to another trailer that has been updated, repaired and upgraded... with a work shop and a screened in patio!  and my own spot to paint in!

It has been a battle of the mind and the body over the past few years but I keep realizing that my body can not do what it used to no matter how badly the mind wants to.  Not having to make repairs and such (in the new place) will save a lot of energy for things I like to do, for things I enjoy.  I won't be so bogged down with the overwhelming thoughts and pressure put on myself of how, when or can I, do by myself what needs to be done.

So, in order to get THERE I have to keep moving around HERE again... but today I want to work on some driftwood paintings...I still have canvases to work on too... I'm looking for something that is different that I can hook into... something that people will have to have, or know when they look at it that it is mine or my style... so in between, that's what I'll be doing in my zone, in my Happy Place!

Quick note:

Hi!

Sunday's exercise was to reflect on the previous week... actually I have been reflecting all week ad especially last night.  I started this week's Design Your Life at the right time... I think Michelle said "when the student is ready, the teacher will appear".


Monday was simply to Exercise your body... I ran around and sent out 31 pieces of art to New Jersey and 1 piece to Laurie in Texas!

Tuesday I skipped some things and helped my friends at their new place which was more than my body could handle.  Today I sit here still in a ridiculous amount of pain... going around in my mind what I should do and what I am going to do....

I have to add to my list of goals is to figure out how to do what has to and what I want to do without going over the edge....

Design Your Life - Exercise 7

Well, it is Day 7 of  Design Your Life!!


I'm pretty excited about it too.  I was stuck and now I am un-stuck!  I am following the new path and have planned steps to take to reach my goal.

Today's exercise was easier because I'd been working on the steps I need to take and Ms. Sherry's example fit me so well (like a glove):

She did my exercise for me!  Well, almost....

My rough drawing wasn't good enough for me so while I ran to the Hardware Store, I was thinking about 'steps'... there aren't many around here... everything is pretty flat.  So I took a ride along the river.  I saw a spot where if I was in the water I could have used some stones like stepping stones along the river's edge but not taking a picture from the shore.  It didn't work. So then I got to a park and thought these round orbs along the walk would work....

So, in order for me to reach my GOAL, these are the steps I have to take:

1. research ways to sell my art ~ done
2. decide on my name ~ done
3. put together my Portfolio ~ working on already
4. create my inventory  ~ working on
5. send to sell ~ ASAP
6. learn more ~ I am...
7. replenish supplies ~
8. create more inventory ~
9. repeat steps 3 thru 8 ....

So now, I am working on my inventory and my current Portfolio... watch for what I come up with (soon)....

Do you have a Design (for) Your Life?

Design Your Life - Exercise # 6

Good afternoon!

My sleep is all messed up!  I go to bed tired and then... my eyes spring open and I am awake for hours.  As it gets to be the time where I say, if I don't fall asleep by whatever o'clock I'll just get up...then I fall asleep.  That's about how it was last night so of course I wasn't up and moving around as early as I planned.  I did get some of my errands (the necessary ones) done and I am back to post and then paint some work that is in progress.  I am looking forward to finishing these pieces.

Before I left, Design Your Life posted Exercise #6...

When I think about myself, without going into the long drawn out story, I think of myself as a survivor.  I have and have been told, good survivor skills and reflexes... and they have served me well.  So when I had to come up "with one word that means something to me"  and "use each letter to describe your design", I came up right away with survivor. But while I was out and about, I thought about it...

The words I used are:

• sarcastic
• understanding
• responsible
• vital
• independent
• visionary
• outgoing
• reliable

 Now there is nothing wrong, pre se with these words, but as I drove around, blasting my music, I thought about how many times I thought to myself that I don't want to be a survivor.  Not that I don't want to survive but I don't want to just survive, I want to LIVE!  And there is a difference...

The difference is, to me, that I have been surviving and getting by BUT what I want to do is LIVE... Live, Love and Laugh...Live Life to the Fullest, Love Fully and Do What I Love, and Laugh till it hurts, till I lose my breathe!!




 So now I want a new word....
how about MERMAID?  YES!  It's a Mermaid Life for me!!

So, there you have it.  Just like angels come into your life as friends in disguise, teachers come in as Mentors and teach you things you didn't know as well as things you didn't know you didn't know and you didn't even know you wanted to know. I am so encouraged going forward.  This journey has taken many twists and turns and I am excited to see the path before me as the journey begins again along the beach.  I am so much more relaxed at this time doing what I love to do and learning more as I go.  It's just magic!!  I am very interested in living, learning and laughter! It's a great way to keep from growing old and stagnant... and who wants that?  I am delighted that my brain took this twist and my life as well...I think I had to step back and remember that I am Designing MY Life ad what is it that I want it to be...how do I see it in a dream and that's the path to take.