Design Your Life - Exercise # 6

Good afternoon!

My sleep is all messed up!  I go to bed tired and then... my eyes spring open and I am awake for hours.  As it gets to be the time where I say, if I don't fall asleep by whatever o'clock I'll just get up...then I fall asleep.  That's about how it was last night so of course I wasn't up and moving around as early as I planned.  I did get some of my errands (the necessary ones) done and I am back to post and then paint some work that is in progress.  I am looking forward to finishing these pieces.

Before I left, Design Your Life posted Exercise #6...

When I think about myself, without going into the long drawn out story, I think of myself as a survivor.  I have and have been told, good survivor skills and reflexes... and they have served me well.  So when I had to come up "with one word that means something to me"  and "use each letter to describe your design", I came up right away with survivor. But while I was out and about, I thought about it...

The words I used are:

• sarcastic
• understanding
• responsible
• vital
• independent
• visionary
• outgoing
• reliable

 Now there is nothing wrong, pre se with these words, but as I drove around, blasting my music, I thought about how many times I thought to myself that I don't want to be a survivor.  Not that I don't want to survive but I don't want to just survive, I want to LIVE!  And there is a difference...

The difference is, to me, that I have been surviving and getting by BUT what I want to do is LIVE... Live, Love and Laugh...Live Life to the Fullest, Love Fully and Do What I Love, and Laugh till it hurts, till I lose my breathe!!




 So now I want a new word....
how about MERMAID?  YES!  It's a Mermaid Life for me!!

So, there you have it.  Just like angels come into your life as friends in disguise, teachers come in as Mentors and teach you things you didn't know as well as things you didn't know you didn't know and you didn't even know you wanted to know. I am so encouraged going forward.  This journey has taken many twists and turns and I am excited to see the path before me as the journey begins again along the beach.  I am so much more relaxed at this time doing what I love to do and learning more as I go.  It's just magic!!  I am very interested in living, learning and laughter! It's a great way to keep from growing old and stagnant... and who wants that?  I am delighted that my brain took this twist and my life as well...I think I had to step back and remember that I am Designing MY Life ad what is it that I want it to be...how do I see it in a dream and that's the path to take.

Practical Tips for Productive Living

Marc and Angel Hack Life - Practical Tips for Productive Living:

From time to time people ask me how I hold my head up so high after all I've been through, and I always tell them the same thing:  

“It's because no matter what, I am a survivor, not a victim.”

Never let go of hope. Remember what you deserve and keep pushing forward. Someday all the pieces will come together. Unimaginably good things will transpire in your life, even if everything doesn’t turn out exactly the way you had anticipated. And you will look back at the times that have passed, smile, and ask yourself,

“How did I get through all of that?”

- via:  Marc and Angel Hack Life

I can, now, relate to this so much!  I remember being told I was a survivor way before I believed it myself.  My mother told me that I came from a stock of strong women, and thinking:

"what the hell does she know?!"

Well, it takes one to know one.  SHE is a survivor!  And there are those that don't even realize it. 

I just called her... I asked her who she sees when she looks in the mirror?  She sees her mother (my grandmother).  I told her, I didn't now what coma I just woke up out of or when it happened but this morning, I was looking in the mirror and looking became staring because I didn't see "me"  I was staring at her!  She use to tell me I look like my father, BUT somewhere along the way I look just like my mother!!  That is NOT a bad thing, just surprised me.

Not what I was looking for but I posted this to Mom's wall with "Thank you!"  Destiny's Child - Survivor

and Christina Aguilera - Fighter

and I wish they all knew my mother or had a mother that kept them from the edge so they would believe they are Fukin' Perfect - (Pink).


It is so good to know not to ever give up hope and things do get better... not how you planned BUT better!

Love ya Mom...have a great weekend!