frustrated!?

I'm sitting here again.... I have so many things to do and so many I want to do but I am having a hard time standing, no less bending and forget about kneeling!

I don't do things in any order that makes sense necessarily but more as I can according to pain level and what meets my fancy.  Usually, people would seal first, paint, decorate, etc.  I did all section by section so I had to go up and down the ladder the least amount of times.  I painted sections from the bottom first on days I couldn't use the ladder... but I am feeling like I have been doing too much in too short of time... and not keeping up with everything else or what routinely needs to be done... and I AM GETTING FRUSTRATED!

Last night we had a heavy rain and the areas I sealed seem to have held up but areas that needed the extra didn't and of course there is still areas to be sealed.

I have this problem, "Wonder Woman Syndrome".  My mind is working and has these great ideas and I work in no special order but my body is not cooperating.  I am working on the patio, in the mist of cleaning out the shed, need to patch the floor in front of the door, need to chalk in between the new sub floor in the kitchen and decide on flooring... I guess I need to find someone else to mow the weeds and want to try to re-seed some patches... need more shells for the front of the house and power wash and paint the whole darn thing!  

Today, I will make a list (again), try to do little things necessary and take some pictures of what is getting done so I can remind myself that I am making progress!

a friend posted this, so I don't know the original source.

 

I'm on my ass again!

Some of you understand, those that don't, I don't know what I could tell you.   I pushed and I pushed, I backed off a couple of days and pushed past the limit so here I am sitting.  I'm trying to take the focus off the pain and ....

I was moving right along on the patio... avoiding the up and down of the ladder, Sunday I was excited to finish painting so I could get to clean up and reposition my chairs.... but I had someone come over and he weighed allot more than me, stepped just right and went through a soft spot in the mobile home floor!!!  Thank God he wasn't hurt!!  But his mother was glad it wasn't me!  So I changed plans and started to prepare to repair it BUT it did me in...I couldn't move.  Yesterday I was in so much pain, I was angry!  Not sure at who or what after I was angry with myself for being useless... which is really not so.  My mind and body still have a problem with when is enough.  And anger was good for me this time.

I just get frustrated 'cause I want to keep going and get stuff done.  In my anger, I figured out a much easier way to fix the floor so that is a good thing.  But it entails going to the money tree and buying more supplies.

Yesterday, and today, will be do-nothing days.  Today, my brother-in-law is having major surgery in New York, so I am sitting and waiting with my family via text messages and phone calls.  Please say a prayer or send positive vibes their way, if you read this.

Hope you are having a great day!